Passing Clouds

Let me tick off with my favorite activity... Sleeping!!!
It is said that an average human sleeps 7-8 hours a day. Then i am not the average human coz i can sleep more!!! Mom says i am lazy but i say i am gifted!  When people swallow pills to get the sleep, i get it naturally.. is that not a gift???

Dream is a drama played by our mind. I am not a psychotherapist to know the technicalities. But i used to wonder why do i like sleeping and dreaming about something than to wake up and start living in the real world?? Is it not true that dreams are more interesting than real life???

Coz in my dream i have the powers.. I am the queen... I have the power to create... I have the power to destroy... If i want to slap someone in real life, i achieve that in my dream... Yes my dream makes me fulfill what i want...

Dreams are funny. They sometimes take me to the wonderful world and make me feel like 'i wish this is true, i wish i never wake up'! At times they cause nightmares making me wake up in the middle of the night and feel 'Thank god i am not dead'.. making me afraid to face the dark all the time!

How many times do we remember what we dreamt about last night?? Most of the time the answer is negative. So what happens to us when we sleep. As far as i can remember my mind takes me out of my body, out of my home to another place. The illusion looks so real that it gives me a feeling that i am dead.

Thinking about death I somehow remember a vague sentence i heard somewhere in a movie when a man died "And he will sleep permanently in peace now".. That one sentence made me think in my mind somewhere in the corner "Is it not cool to die coz i can keep sleeping happily without having to go to school... I wish i was dead too!!!" That made me start thinking about death...

Now what is the connection between sleep and death??
I feel sleep is a temporary death... When i sleep in the night (or day!!) i go to a different world... Away from my body.. Away from my home... I live in the wonderland until i wake up...
Or to put it the other way... Death means permanent sleep where i can live in the same wonderland without having to wake up!!!

When my thoughts about death was on one part, there was another part of my mind which asked me some valid questions - 'What is the purpose of my birth?? There is a reason why i am not dead today. What is the task that i have to complete before i die? What is meant by life?'

I started searching for the answer from within myself. The search within my soul has begun!!!